The beginning

I have no idea where to begin and I know this is gonna be a struggle. I woke up one day and was disgusted with my life, not that I was treating people wrong or doing the wrong things.... everything else correct it was just that there was always that one part of my life that I felt needed changing. You name it I've done it physically, sexually, and I was left feeling emotionally dead. Sex is meant for a husband and a wife, to be sacred and not something that you give to a so called boyfriend. Boyfriend is nowhere in the bible.... I want to be open to receive love, so that when God sends my Boaz ill recognize exactly who he is because he'll be the one who stayed and got to know me for me, flaws and all. Not sexually but mentally.... like I said this is all new I'm not perfect so I know its gonna be tough but I'm trusting God and praying that this adventure will lead me to my husband/soulmate. :)... More posts and updates to come. Thanks for reading.