I'm expecting!!!! :)

NO I AM NOT PREGNANT!!! LOL I recently posted this on my Facebook page with this scripture: 1 Corinthians 2:9 (KJV) But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him. I figured today I would expound on that seeing as it caused somewhat of an uproar. lol Okay so lets define the word expecting. Expecting is derived from the word expect.. which means to believe that (someone or something) will arrive soon... Now I could shout just on the definition alone. I have been through alot this year, and I am believing God for somethings... not only that but I am also preparing myself for Jesus' return. I was thinking about how when I first became pregnant that no one could tell in the beginning because I wasn't showing, but on the inside of me a baby was growing. The same goes for my life right now the job I'm working at now may not be all of that, the car I drive, and the house I live in may not look like I have purpose. But just wait.. God is doing some major work on me to prepare me for what's coming... so I'll "let patience have her perfect work, that I may be perfect in entire wanting nothing." (James 1:4) So I challenge you to take a look around at your surroundings.. the areas that you have the most struggle in are the areas that God is going to bless you in the most. If there was any prophecy that was spoken over you believe it... because that was God giving you hope. Just take a birds eye view at your life.. then begin to speak over yourself. God has not forgotten you... He's preparing you for it. I thank God for a mind to think outside the box, and somewhat think the way He does.... for we know "His ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts" I pray that this blessed you the way it blessed me. I love you all! Be blessed, Taira :)

Getting my life :)

I have been feeling a shift in all areas of my life after fasting this month... It's like the Lord has once again taken the blinders off. The last relationship that I was in had a way of exposing somethings about me, and I have begun to notice several areas of my life that I need to be focused on while in this waiting period of my life. I know that there's no way you can totally prepare for marriage or the future, but there are somethings that as a woman we should doing in the meantime and between time. For example, brushing up on our cooking skills, cleaning etc. etc. I myself have 2 children who eat up the little time that I do get during the week after working 50 plus hours... aside from that I am very much active in my church so on the weekends that I don't have my kids, which is every other weekend... I am attending events at my church or helping my sister with something. I know you're like why is she telling me all of her business...lol I'm saying all of this to say that I could be utilizing this time to "get my life!" or in other words prioritize. It's like I woke up and was in complete disgust at the time that I've wasted in my singleness... to be honest it seems as if I was more in a rush to end it then I was embracing this season that God has given me. I know I quote alot, but if I''m not putting those words to practice they mean nothing. So I am determined to make the most out of this single season if it's the last thing I do.... I was thinking last night like what if the time that the Lord has given us is compared to talents.. like in the parable that Jesus told. I want to be able to tell God that you gave me this amount of time as a single woman, and I did all of this with it. So from here on out the only relationship that I really want to talk about is the one between Jesus and I... till next time.. lov you guys! Be blessed, Taira :)

So Thirsty!!

I'm not sure who coined this phrase, but it so describes this period in my life. I was washing dishes, and it just came to me like "you are so thirsty." lol What I mean by that is I am so in love with Jesus! You know that kind of love when all you can talk about is that special someone... that's so how I feel! I don't care what people say... I post about Him because I want my life to reflect my love for Him. On the flip side of that it's also so surreal... it's like when you long for a drink of water, but I don't care how many bottles you drink nothing quite quenches your thirst. That's what being in his presence is like... water. I don't care how long I spend in His presence it's never enough. The side of Jesus I pray that people get to know is... how natural obedience can be. Having a personal relationship with Him is like wanting to make your Father proud.... I want to treat everyone right... I want to be obedient to the word because in the end I want to be reconnected with Him, and hear well done. Revelation 22:17 (KJV) And the Spirit and the bride say, Come. And let him that heareth say, Come. And let him that is athirst come. And whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely. Thanks for reading! Love you guys! be blessed! Taira :)

Keeping my mind stayed on Jesus!

Hello everyone! I am learning that by keeping our lives busy with the things of God (reading the bible, praying, watching sermons) is what will keep our minds focused. I made a personal vow to God that from here on out I would not reach out to any man. I stated in my update post that I have been praying to God that He would keep me hidden.... now the challenge was in what do I do in the moments when I want to reach out to a guy.. Well it dawned on me that prayer is way more effective than a phone call. So if I happen to get the urge to call someone I'll say a prayer for them. I had to come to terms with the fact that if I am on a mans mind then whoever it is will call me or text... if not I'm obviously not that important to him. Ladies, we were created to be the helper so its natural for a woman to want to throw out hints or "help the man see that were the one" but let me serve you notice today that the man God has for you will be in tune with what God is saying, and he will go above and beyond to receive the favor that you will bring to his life. The bible says, "He who finds a wife, finds a good thing and obtains favor from the Lord." God does not need your help, and neither does the man that He has for you. be patient! after all "patience is a virtue.".. Love you Guys! be blessed. Taira:)

Keep me hidden Lord!

Hello everyone! Okay so lately I've been praying this simple prayer, "Lord keep me hidden"... not sure exactly when this came about, but soon after it was as if I could hear the Lord saying, "are you willing to be looked at as ugly" Now this didn't make sense to me at first, but if you think about it none of what God speaks to us makes sense in the natural. So let me break this down for you guys. What I believe the Lord was saying is that to the man that's not for you you'll be found unattractive or not enough. You may even be looked at as too much work, but that's ok because to the man God has for you he's not a stranger to hard work.... Just like a pearl that is hidden deep below the sea I now see that I was praying that God would keep me hidden until the man of God that He has for me comes and finds me. I prayed that until that appointed day that I would be found so lost in Jesus that He would have to seek Him in order to find me. I want to be so engulfed in your anointing Lord that nothing but your presence connects us. So I pray that this is not just my prayer, but that we all may be found as Jesus was by His parents in the temple "about His Father's business"... putting in work. Not just standing there like a damsel in distress, but as a servant. I pray this blessed you as much as it blessed me. much love, Taira :)

Update/ Testimony!

I'mmmm backkk!!! I can't believe I've stayed away for so long, but nevertheless I'm back!! So much has happened that I don't know where to start. Let me get this out of the way first... Yes! I am still abstinent/saving sex for marriage. I have not had any form of sex in 4 years! To God be all the glory... He is surely a keeper.. there is no way I can take any credit for that. Testimony time: I went through what I now see was a huge test/lesson. I had to get rid of all of the residue that was left from living a selfish/worthless life... I see now that I still had a huge lust problem. I am super excited that God has released me to speak on this because I know it means I've passed. Okay so in the past 3 years I was still low key trying to take matters in my own hands. I was attempting to rush to the alter or get married assuming that would solve all of my problems... So I was entertaining men who were Christian guys, but the relationship was not God ordained... What I mean by that is I was more seeking to solve my fleshly desires than I was to bring glory to our Father. I see now that I wanted the wedding, dress, and happily ever after more that I wanted a real relationship with Jesus, and as backwards as that sounds it's the truth. One thing I can say though is I never stopped praying, and as much as It hurt me to hear the answers God gave me... He never failed me in revealing the truth. So ladies and gentlemen if you are unsure about any relationship pray earnestly, and God will reveal the truth to you.... I was in one relationship in particular with a pastor whom I still have nothing bad to say about... I take credit for everything going south... because if I would've stayed hidden I could have prevented a lot of what happened. I realize also that I didn't go through that experience just for me, and that I am going to help a lot of my brothers and sisters who are going through similar situations even now as I type this. So what have I learned: 1. Single sisters we must stay hidden in Christ. We've got to stay in our word and pray without ceasing. If we feed our Spirit man we'll starve the flesh... so when you want to pick up the phone or Facebook a guy go to The Word first, pray about it first. The man God has for you won't miss you. There is nothing you can do to interrupt the plans God has for you. Focus on building a firm foundation that will be able to with stand a marriage. 2. In every situation seek Godly counsel. Before you even get your feelings involved go to someone whom you can trust, that is Holy Spirit filled, and please once you get the advice do exactly as they say I don't care how bad you want a yes... if the say no it's no. Trust me... you'll thank me later for that one. 3. Last but not least, get use to saying No! the bible says, "let your ye be ye, and your nah be nah. I learned from a friend that you have to make a list of non negotiables... this is a list of things that you will not compromise on. so if a man/woman enters your life, and they're not in alignment with what you wrote down you know that this person is not the one. I pray that this post has blessed someone... Lord willing I plan on posting alot more here... If you have any questions or just need prayer feel free to email me at tairaburks@gmail.com. much love, Taira :)